im too lazy to write in here...

i smell cookies yet no one is cooking in my house

getting MRI in a couple weeks

i have a talent of evading romantic relationships (willingly or not)

i am the worlds BEST procratinator

trust too easily

fall for people too easily and when i do, i go head over heels. Dang  my passionate nature.

feel guilty everytime i curse, and am obsessive compulsive, with very odd things like: things being written in a particular order, things thrown on a table have to land a certain way or i have to walk around a bush on a certain side or jump over it, whatever im compelled to do that day.  If i dont, i get this uneasy feeling in my stomach and i begin to fear everything will go wrong if this particular pen lid is not facing the right direction.

wish it applied to my homeowrk and life. 

immune to acctual insults, they are now amusing

am not really bitter b/c i forget it all so quickly...i sometimes forget my shoes

misinterpret everything and treat people accordingly

say i can't wait till college yet i am terrified of who i might become or what i will encounter.

the only true safe place to be is in a state of indifference and unpartiality(if hats even a word).  But thats impossible for my... i care too much: about people and things and beauty and balance...

i cant talk about things on here that i want to... goodness i wish i could tell EVERYONE EVERYTHIGN i think, but that would make me vunerable and leave them in control... never a goodthing, well at least its not ever safe..from experience...im willing to be taught otherwise.. but its impossible.

forgot why i even started writing... well there you go, types of things that go thru my head.. no wonder i cant concentrate...